Socializing with the community? Games, mods, groups, servers, etc.

Is there anything at all?

I’m intensely lonely and isolated and I miss things like roleplay and generally just vibing with folks, but the thing about isolation is that it’s kind of… self-perpetuating.

I used to play on Gain Station, the SS13 weight gain server, but after an incident related to my behavior there, I became increasingly paranoid and unstable and eventually left. Frankly, the thought of trying to go back at this point is terrifying, and it’s left me feeling like a pariah in the community as a whole.

This doesn’t really make me sound all that great, and frankly, I’m not, but if I just accept that, then I might as well just crawl into a hole and die. I just wanna vibe with people and talk about fat stuff and roleplay and… you know, connect and stuff again. I really miss it, and I think maybe I’ve suffered enough by now.

The thing is, I’m not sure where to branch out and look for opportunities to socialize because I don’t really have anything or anyone left at this point, and honestly, all of this? The malaise and despair? It’s a bad look that isn’t exactly attractive and I can’t seem to wash it off because I’m drowning in it all the time.

Is Gain Station the only multiplayer-focused project around? Are there any roleplay or tabletop groups maybe? Anyone just looking for someone with a literary background to fuck around with in Discord DMs occasionally? Just… anything?

Sorry if this was a bummer to read.

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Sorry to hear you’re having a rough time. I’m not too connected to other communities outside of this one at the moment. Most of my old haunts have disappeared too over time. I just figured you may have needed someone to reach out and say you’re not alone.

While I wouldn’t be up for roleplay, I remembered someone asking about roleplay/TTRPG recently:

My search also turned up these more recent threads which may lead you to some connections:

Good luck!

I’d be happy to have another Discord friend!
Just DM me here and I can give you my Discord

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I’ve been trying to find people to do stuff like play Atlyss with me if you’re interested. Or other games, whatever’s good.

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Sorry, took me a bit to gather the courage to even look at this thread after I made it. At least I’ve done that much, now.

Gimme a lil longer to muster a real reply to any of you, alright?

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Hey, welcome back. Take your time! The community is here, that’s what connecting with folks is all about right? We just all need to go at our own pace, and it’s hard for us all sometimes.

I’m sure you’ll find the right folks to connect with that share your interests. Don’t give up, the best things are the hardest to find, it just takes some time. Good luck!

Hope you’re doing okay. I’ve been through really similar as well. Had a really bad mental breakdown after causing trouble for everyone for the billionth time and went into isolation for 9 months and thought I got better. I didn’t. Screwed everything up again horribly by the second day back and had a really severe panic attack. Gave up on being in almost any sort of community entirely after that, which is quite difficult since I’m technically an extrovert but with PTSD around socializing (among other things), but I’ve kind of reached acceptance at this point. I’m not a bad person I think, I’ve just got a lot of issues from being raised by my abusive mom.

I was making a big community-oriented multiplayer game here a while back. It isn’t the same any more because I can no longer handle larger communities like before, though. It’s still community-oriented, but it’s more for couples and friend groups of 1-8, since I’ll probably only really be playing it with my girlfriend and coworkers. It’s on my profile if you’re interested, by the way, but it’s a pretty massive project, might not even get done until next year.

Anyways, enough about my project, I tend to get sidetracked easily.

There are plenty of weight gain fetish communities out there and I could link you to a good one if you’d like, but maybe you need to start small. You mentioned you don’t have anything or anyone left at this point. That’s really a problem. I still had friends and my girlfriend when I was in isolation, and even then, my ability to interact with larger communities decayed noticeably over that time.

I really think you’d be interesting to talk to. We’ve had a lot of similar experiences it seems. I’m a very forgiving person, especially since I’ve been rather “unreasonable” in the past, so I can really empathize with anything you’re going through. It may be a little too late for me to get back into joining communities but I’m sure you have it in you to be successful and make lots of friends like I once wanted. Plus, your bio says you’re a puppygirl. It’s a little difficult to describe what I am (especially in public), but let’s just say I’m “puppygirl-adjacent.”

If you want to know a little more about me, I’m trans, started game development at 9 since it was my escape from the real world, 4 years programming experience, and I’ve been writing since I was a young child since that was another escape from the real world. I like gardening and cooking. Especially the eating part of cooking. All of my close friends say I’m adorable. I love talking about many things, especially my stories and OCs, fetish stuff (weight gain and lactation the most), and plenty of other things. I’m also pretty fat, very pear shaped. It’s quite nice.

Well, this got… maybe a little too long. I tend to do that. I hope we can be friends. If you’re interested, send me your Discord username over forum DMs and I’ll add you.