I remember doing three things in second grade (don’t ask me why I remember it as second grade specifically, I have no idea) that I later realized were the early blossomings of a fetish. First (in no particular chronological order), I remember eating just a spoonful of sugar in my grandma’s kitchen thinking it would help me get fat. Second, I remember thinking about writing a guide on how to gain weight, despite not even knowing at the time if anyone else wanted to know that (and like a second grader knew everything, right?). And finally, I remember looking at overweight family members around me and thinking something along the lines of “If they can be fat, why can’t I?”
Flash forward several years to 8th grade. That’s when I first truly realized I just really liked fat girls. Well, chubby to insanely obese and everything in between. There was one model on YouTube that I remember liking a lot at the time called summerchubbygirl. I’ve tried looking her up a few times since then to no avail. Another one I really liked was a video called “Violet’s Weight Gain” or something along those lines? And no, not Violet from Willy Wonka. Sorry, never really had a thing for the blueberry fetish. It wouldn’t be for another year that I would discover Foxy Roxxie and find that I absolutely love double bellies.
Many many times since then, I’ve attempted to gain weight myself, get 10-15 pounds in like 2 weeks, and then stop out of fear. Then I would lose the weight (or at least most of it) for a while before getting the urge all over again. However, I don’t think that I’ve had that urge in at least a year.
Also, yes I did do the pillow thing, but I didn’t think about it until like 4th grade when I saw it somewhere online. I also had this old pair of jeans that I could still wear in middle school where the button wasn’t like normal buttons. Rather it was more of a clicky-like button. Didn’t hold as tightly, but at least I didn’t have to worry about damages from popping it. Which I did. A lot.
But yeah, that’s the long and boring story of my entering into this fetish.